It's been a big few weeks in my little world.
Someone told me once that the older you get, time seems to go faster because you don't have to think about what you are doing day to day as you've already done everything so many times. With Sebastian, every day is a new experience, but the time still seems to fly by, hours pass like minutes, especially when we are having fun. When we are grumpy, not so much!
I just realised about a week ago that Sebastian is nearly 1, and I honestly can't believe that I have been a mother for almost a year. That only 8 months ago, I was experiencing such pain and sadness every day that I couldn't appreciate the first few months of his life with us, and feeling at that time that I was never going to be able to the mother and partner that I wanted to be. Those days felt like years.
Last Wednesday, my friends and I graduated from JCU with degrees in New Media Arts. For many of us, it is a confusing and difficult time. Completing 3 years of study, especially a creative arts degree, is a big achievement for most of us, so it is with some sadness we leave uni and enter the 'real world', because at this point we are confronted with the difficulty of continuing to follow our dreams and passions whilst making a living in an increasingly materialistic and expensive society. We no longer have the freedom to create without thinking about printing costs, commissions, what the 'buyer' wants. I have just one friend who actually works in her chosen field, rather than any job you can get to pay the bills while creating art in your spare time. Many people comment that I must be really excited to have graduated, but having that piece of paper does not satisfy me in the same way a job booking could! Personally, I am so glad and grateful that I am a full time Mum right now, not a full time job seeker!
However, it's not all doom and gloom! Another new experience I had last week was attending a meeting of the North Queensland AIPP. The meeting was chaired by the lovely Kurt Stockham,who I mentioned in a previous blog. There were a fantastic bunch of local professionals there, every one that I spoke to was warm and inviting, even though my friend and I are not even members of the AIPP. Felicity from Flicka Photography and Judi of Judi Graphics both offered advice and encouragement, It is so helpful to speak with people who have worked in the industry for years and find out that they started at the same point we are at now, and have created diverse and fulfilling careers for themselves against the odds.
My photos for this blog, are once again, my favourite and most accessible models, the boys. I am looking forward to meeting the winners of my giveaway and taking some family portraits for them, but for now, you guys will just have to settle with the best looking father/son team in Townsville. ( I'm probably a bit biased)
I feel this post may have gone a little off track, so back to the point I was trying to make. Yes, I have graduated, which I am proud of myself for, but not for the reasons you might think. Not because it means I am a professional, I am far from that, and can only try to improve my work with every picture I take. I am proud because it has brought me a little bit closer to being the person I want to be, a person who is educated, adaptable, committed and hard working. A person who is happy living each moment of life because I am doing the best job I can whether it is as a mother or a partner or a photographer. A person who can create anything I put my mind to.
Thanks for reading,